A Delicate Balance

Dear Wal,

Today I shall rant about all the crap I do to keep from turning into a manic depressive who chews out people for leaving a piece of paper on the table. I'm so careful-it's ridiculous. When I know I'm grouchy or crazy or whatever, I spend twice as much time thinking about everything I'm saying to make sure it won't set off a huge tirade on my part or hurt someone else's feelings, but sometimes there just isn't anything I can do. I go rampaging around like a big angry storm cloud for a few minutes and then I spend the rest of the evening wallowing in shame because I was behaving like an idiot. At times like these, I usually end up playing minecraft or drowning myself in schoolwork or horses or something the rest of the evening, and I may stay in that place of despair for weeks or minutes, I can never tell.
What do I do to prevent from ever getting to that point in the first place? I write. Not necessarily about stuff I'm upset over but just anything, my own emotions seep through into my characters and can sometimes screw them up horribly or enrich a scene depending on the punctuality of my emotional stability. I guess in a way that's part of the many reasons why my writing is so personal for me. When I honestly need to go into an emotional rant over something I'm upset about then I write a letter. My writing in notebooks is usually occasionally interspersed with those letters, and has become a writing/journal/random jotted down ideas notebook. It's rather entertaining, actually. I also run or ride my horse a few times a week, which usually does the trick as far as curing whatever it is that's screwing me up.
I have to make sure I don't listen to the wrong music at the wrong time or write the wrong story at the wrong moment or else it may send me spiraling off on another emotional thing. Then again, other times being on an emotional thing can produce sheer brilliance in my writing. I may be disturbed or amazed or just plain terrified of some idea that comes into my head at a particular moment of emotional instability, and I usually end up whirling around on my notebook or laptop until I get whatever crazy idea it is out of my system.
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Well, if that wasn't an emotional rant I don't know what one is. Anyway, time for script frenzy update.
I've only written two panels today. I've got a ton of crap to do this evening and a paper to write that happens to be a story which means that somehow I have to re-wrought my carefully honed fanfiction creativity I've been channeling into a Beauty and the Beast deconstruction. Yeah, it's going to be bad.

/endrant